Well my son is turning 10 years old on November 16th. It seems like just yesterday when he was born. Most everyone doesn’t know our whole story but we have something very special between us. I have raised him all his life and one day it was revealed to me that I was not his true father. That can kill a person. And it did hurt very bad but we have gotten past that all and now I’m still his dad and he is still my son and always will be.. He said I will always be his dad. I haven’t shared this much with anyone but I don’t want to keep it a secret because that is not what I have been trying to do. It’s just how do you explain to people after like 8 years that your son is not really your son.. But our love is so strong for each other nothing can ever take it away from us.. I love that boy more than any other person in this world could and I feel like he feels the same toward me.. So Happy Birthday to my awesome son Blake Carroll… I love you boy…
New Beginnings..
Posted: August 1, 2011 in Love, WorkTags: family, Job, life, Love, marriage, relationships
Well things are getting so much better.. I am now engaged to a very beautiful inside and out woman. I am hoping to hear from Alabama Power Co about a job, which is mostly at home. And that would be basically a dream come true. Things could become so great for me if I get this job.. I could have the family that I have so been desiring. I always wanted to have a family and be at home at night like most everyone else gets to be. Well hopefully that day is coming for me now.. I have prayed for it for so long now. And I continue to do so.. I will update as I know about the job.. As far as wedding we are planning it to be a very small wedding, probably September 24th 2011.
So things have so been going good lately with my life… I am not trying to make anyone who has not been enjoying their life feel bad but I have found my soul mate and could not be happier right now.. I have known her for years but just about 2 month’s ago started dating and things are pretty much perfect in every way. It is like there could never be a problem between me and her.. She is so awesome. I love her and her kids with all my heart and she feels the same with me and my son. With my job it is so hard to try and do the relationship thing but so far it’s working out.. Although I haven’t had to be gone much at all. But I am starting to be gone some and it’s so hard for both of us to be away from each other.. But I honestly don’t see her cheating on me like some of the other women I have been in relationships has done.. And I could never cheat on her either.. I love her so much it is unreal. I have no interest what so ever in any other person. I can see us going till death in our relationship.. I see us being together forever. We are very compatible and I have never been this happy with a woman. She does things for me and takes care of me and even does the little things like rubbing my back or anything that I would want her to do. And it feels so good because I haven’t really ever had anyone to care about me and do things like that like she does.. So anyways I just wanted to update on my life this is the main thing going on in my life as of right now.. Just work and of course spending as much time with my son and now my new love.. Life just couldn’t get better than it is right now…. I love you baby.
Talking to someone so very special…. Can’t get enough.. I am so happy right now..
Well I guess things in my life have taken an extreme turn around in the opposite direction. And I have to say I am very happy at this very moment. I have re-connected with someone so very special. And things really look like it could turn into a close relationship. I haven’t seen her in about 5 years and we pretty much just picked up somewhat where we left off.. The thing is is that we were just friends before because I was married and she was married and we all used to do things together. But now I am divorced and she is divorced and we are like 100% compatible. We have so much in common it’s not funny. So if you see me out with a smile on my face.. Well you know why now…
Well I haven’t owned my Macbook but for like a couple of weeks and I am sold… I absolutely love this thing.. I always thought I would like to have one. After owning it I would have to advise one for everyone.
I wanted to take some time to tell anyone who has a Mac and does any blogging to get a copy of Marsedit. It let’s you do all your blogging from one application. It can be used on several different blog sites like WordPress, Blogger, Tumblr and many more.. I have just started using it just recently and I feel like it is gonna have me blogging more often..
I wanted to take a sec to show everyone something I thought was very nice.. It’s a picture I took on a day that wasn’t going good.. I was having to work out in the rain at work and it was muddy very much so and I was unhappy… But then I looked up and seen this scene and it honestly made things a little better.. Check it out..
Well I guess for today this is about all I have to say..
Actually I do have one more little thing.. I have reconnected with a special female person that I care about a lot. And all I have to say is right now I feel like things are looking good as far as a relationship.. I care for her a good bit and it seems she does for me as well.. So I will keep everyone up to date on this as well in the future blogs..
Everyone have an awesome day…
It’s been a while since I did any blogging.. So I thought I would do one for memorial day… This is a very special day to honor all the soldiers out there that are fighting this useless war as far as I am concerned.. I am very proud of every soldier out there that will go fight for our country.. I had a very good friend I grew up with to die while he was in the service even though he wasn’t in any war it Memorial Day still means a lot to me. I think about him a lot during this time of year.. We played Taps today at church and every time I hear that song tears fill up my eyes because I think back on his funeral and what an awesome funeral it was.. He was given a full military funeral.. And they played Taps and did the 21 gun salute.. Very awesome.. I just hate that we are still sending young men over to fight a war that is pretty much like Vietnam.. Fighting for no reason.. The mission is complete we proved we wasn’t gonna take any terrorist attacks.. So lets get out..
In other parts of my little world I have been through another relationship and it has already ended.. What is really bad is I honestly deep down inside thought this one was the one for me.. She is a very special person that meant the world to me. She helped me out in my life in so many ways that she will never understand. I just wished it could have worked out because I could see me with her for the rest of my life. But I guess it wasn’t God’s will.. That is something I have a hard time with.. Sometimes I feel like it should be God’s will but if it was I would still be with her I guess.. She has told me that maybe one day if things do work out we might could be together again.. I just really don’t see it happening now though. It just aggravate’s me because I so wanted it to work.. I feel like she has a new person in her life and she has moved on but who knows… Maybe the Lord can still work a miracle.
Well I hope everyone has a great Memorial Day.. I hope the weather holds off so people can get some good family time because there isn’t a person out there that doesn’t need some good family time. Make sure you take the time to enjoy this time with your family because you never know when on of your family members could be gone forever.. We see it all the time, someone we know loose someone close to them. But we just take it for granted and don’t really think that it will happen to us. But of course it is going to happen someday.. So enjoy some quality time with the one’s you love and if for some reason you can’t try to find someone to spend Memorial Day with doing something special.
Just sitting here thinking what life would be like if I wasn’t raised in church.. I couldn’t even imagine. When I go a while missing church I really get to missing it. The people are like family and I could not imagine a life with no church family.. I pray for those that have no clue about church, they have no idea what they are missing. If you are reading this and don’t have a church please go to a church Sunday and give it a try and get the other family that is missing in your life
I just had some things on the mind I wanted to talk about… One is the fact that no one understands how unhappy I am with the type of work I do.. I have been traveling for like 13 or 14 years and I’m really ready to come home.. Everyone is always saying just be happy you have a job. And yeah I am happy I have a job, but to me that’s not what is important. I have very strong urges to come home and to spend much time with my son as I can.. He is growing very fast and I am going to miss it all and no one else is, just me. So money to me is not really what is important. You can’t tell me out of all the people who are working in Jasper and making it without having to travel that I couldn’t get a job at home. Sometimes I feel like the urges may be God trying to tell me that going home is actually what he wants me to do. God is all about families and not material things. Money is a material thing right?
Also I am saddened at the fact how there isn’t much communication today.. It’s all about computers and texting and what not.. There isn’t much voice to voice communication. Everyone has gotten so busy that they can’t take time to call each other.. And I’m guilty of it just as well but I wish everyone could just slow down and take the time to talk.. I love Facebook because it’s great for me to stay in touch with people I wouldn’t normally keep up with. I have others that I used to talk to voice to voice more often but now I find us just talking on the Facebook chat or email or text.. It’s just not right people.. LET’S SLOW DOWN…. We have nowhere to hurry and go to..
Why is love such a strong emotion? People will do so much more for someone they love than imaginable. It makes people disreguard any common sense. That’s why I try not to fall for anyone.. I have enough people that I love so much that I would do anything for that I don’t need any more. And what hurts the most is when one of those takes advantage of your love.
